after the suffering 4th semester in INTI!!! SORRY for not updating my blog because im really occupied by LOTS LOTS of Activites here!
shall reveal one by one here wit all the damn nice photos!

As promise from my previous blog,now is the time to show the evil and surprise mission before the final exam!This is the most big event that i reli put a lot of effort to organise,althought in between the processs i do reli face a lots of problem such as the people list,site,details,presents and all those problem that reli make me so so so headache for one whole month and even make me cry for it!but anyway,it do bring success and surprise to 3 of the beloved birthday girls-
JESSICA- my dear dear neighbour whose bday fall on 21/10.my life will be sucks in INTI if without her by my side for my evry difficult problem=)
NG LEW JIN-my sot sot roomie whom reli make me "suffer" a lot in INTI!hahah!she was the one who reli make me bui da han for all the time in the room but if without her by my side,i guess i wont be who am i now^^ anyway,still luv u la!my roomie!
MIK XIN-my lovely coursemate,u are the one who reli make me feel 痛苦when on the way that we and sujia them reli think a lot to cheat u for the surprise party!haha~anyway,hope this bday will be the memorable one in 3 of ur life in INTI here!

今天。是一个不好的日子。

外面乌云密布雷声隆隆  很快就要下雨了

我的心也暗暗灰灰的

今天有一个朋友离开我们了       一个我不熟悉但却是一个非常单纯聪明善良的男生

他和我们一样是jpa的

不同的是他是我们当中第一个也是唯一一个男生进到美国顶尖cornell university 的

现在幸运这个形容  或许已经不能再用到他身上了

还记得最后一次和他一起是在旺角吃宵夜  他点了一杯水  和我们玩着用手拍桌子的游戏

当他可以处罚人时  他就只是轻轻的摸摸隔壁女生的头当做对她的处罚    因为他说从来不会打人的

很善良 真的  是出自内心的善良  我们每个人都懂   我找不到别的形容词可以形容他了

每次看到他 他总是腼腆般的笑着和我说hello

在图书馆看报纸时也一样   当我们social trial 的colawyer的时候也一样

非常文静的一个男生

希望他会到天国去

Shall pray for him

REST IN PEACE

 

Treasure your love one like no tomorrow

Becoz we nevr know when we will be apart wit each other

Said I love u to all those u love if u still got chance…..friends and family…..

Look at the clock on the right hand side,it is showing now 1:22am 16 October 2009~!!!
WAT the HEEELLLLLLL!!!!so late ady and im should be on my bed=)but now im still typing the blog~
it is becoz my stomach is full of the supper and i cnt fall to my bed immediately~:'(
should off to bed soon~shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiihhhhh***my roomate is sleeping now***cnt make much noise**im typing in the dark=_=""

Anyway,juz reli wan to mention that today was reli awesome to me^^memorable as well~
it is juz so meaningful to complete the amazing task wit my s&w fellows~waiting for the secret mission to be successfully done on the coming week!!
reli put a lot of effort in it and hope it will be success!!
this is the first time im organizing this kind of "secret mission" in college here~hope evrything will go smoothly and we shall looking foward for the next awesome day~thx to the cooperations that u guys and u girls had contribute tonitezz~we all are amazing and i think im veri lucky i got the chance to met u all~

reli cnt express the excited that i felt while waiting for the day to come^^shall reveal all the details in my next blog~
maybe after finals ya:( becoz i left wit 11 days to complete about 15++lectures and 1 more presentation and 1 more assignment to go=_=''
i shall struggle until die when i going to hafal 100++physics formula!!!!!

Countdown to my final: 11 days to go= DIE lol~~~

如果笑容变得不堪回首  还眷恋着什么

如果一切失去了重心  我还期盼什么

沉寂的是回忆  痛苦的是离去

如果因为害怕未来   那现在又算什么？

如果时间能为谁而留   我宁愿它远去

在最灿烂的时刻  我们写下最美好的回忆

期盼下次见面  变得更成熟

终结插曲   错谱回忆

U are alwaz in my HEART=)  px

SERIOUSLY AT THIS MOMENT,I reali very regret for accidentally sprained my ankle during the badminton game.i know it is a serious matter as I got the experience be4,just sprained my left ankle last last month and now this week turn to my right ankle!!somemore this time is reli serious then last time.i should be more careful d!but this time sprained reli out of my expected,it happen so fast in just 1 second and I cnt control it not to happen.i shouldn't go to catch the badminton ball.now I really regret for getting so many people worried for me.

To mammy: sori la.i know that I should take care of my ankle since the last accident.but reli sori I let it happen again.i will take care of myself from now on.i promise I wont let it happen again!thx for calling the aunty and reli sori for make u so worry and angry.

To my dear friend jesslyn and dear roomies lew jin aunty and Eileen:thx a lot for accompany me to c the doctors and help me up and down as I cnt move around freely now.sori for all the troubles that I caused.thx for tapau the food for me as well=)how do I live without s&w??haha~~

To mik xin and jialerd: thx for “carrying” me to and back from acadermic block and my room~sori for cause a lot of trouble to u guys.thx lotsa^^

To mado: thx for the massage evrytime I sprained the ankle.u are alwaz there when I ned ur help~thx ya^^

 

Due to this incident:im officially off from all the outdoor activities and cnt play badminton and jogging for the coming 1 months I guess?dun tell me is 3 months la.i will become PIG that time ady~I should recover fast fast and jump jump around again!!hope my ankle will recover soon=)

and becoz of the accident:I din manage to carry out the plan to cook chicken curry in this weekend!!why until now I still cnt get the chance to cook here?haiz~and very very sadly: I CAUSED S&W 4 people cnt go for the mooncake festivel party in BAGAN LALANG today!!!IM just so so so sorry for that!!relii looking forward for the trip but in the end we all cnt make it…..  :( wuwuwuwu~we lose a good chance to take a lot of nice photosss~too bad to be true!

Anyway hope that it will become an alert to all of u who are viewing my blog:
DO TAKE CARE OF UR BODY!!ANYTIME AND ANYWHERE!else u might end up like me:spend 250++ for treatment!!go to the western and Chinese treatment~im not joking~do believe me…….

these are the photos taken during my 1 week raya break:SUSHI MAKING!!
LUV to make sushi!!!NICE AND DELICIOUS~thx mummy for bring me to buy ingredients=)mummy is awesome!!!

This is the photo taken yesterday:our SCRABBLE!!it becomes my favorite game recently and as u all know la>my roomie ei leen is the scrabble queen and of course she is the winner of the day^^im the third>luckily not the last~haha~second winner is the stupid yc and his wife is the last~hoho~shall play another game next day!!yeah=)

其实很多事情 包括友情在内  都是要你情我愿 

如果只是单方面的不断付出  另一方却显得可有可无  这样下次  能维持多久？

不管是新朋友也好  旧朋友也好  相信这种问题还是在所难免

我自认不够成熟  或许还不能应付得很好  或许就像很多人说的 
dun take it so seriously la everything will be fine  maybe after the time   they will be bek soon

那么下一次呢？  如果上了大学  各奔前程  是不是又要说大家假期不同 活动不同  要过的生活不同了  那到时候要在相聚  应该是更加难上加难了吧

或许明年的我有机会离开本土  到时候两年回来 或许大家也不会再联络了吧

想到这里 心有点抽痛  很多朋友说我或许看友情看的太重要了吧  自己也不了解  或许是真的吧

但那样是不好的吗？我困惑了   或许吧    那么何谓真心的付出  才会等到别人的真心回报

还是这一切都是骗人的？  这个世界上就像某些人说的  千万不要对别人期望太高  有谁会真心对你呢

有时候真的不了解友情这两个字  意义何在  有时候关心 也是一种压力  或许平平淡淡 也是幸福

还是生命中有了亲情和爱情  友情就显得微不足道了呢

有时候很害怕   不知道该如何面对友情间的问题 很怕突然说错做错什么就无法挽留照成伤害

或许还是逃避的好？不要面对？含糊带过？让时间来面对？我又困惑了。

或许考完试后他们就会恢复原本的样子？或许那些在外读书的放假就愿意出来见面？

还是或许我们都长大了  想法也不一样了  对友情也有别的处事方法  我不懂  可能是友情在对方心理没有同等的价值重量吧

可能我还是很害怕失去吧  或许曾仅拥有的快乐回忆 让我割舍不下 放不开手  很乱很乱  很慌很慌  或许现在的时期  就是所谓的过渡期

过后以后就会慢慢的适应  那种流失了吧  不知道为什么有种感觉在慢慢的消失  心感觉在慢慢的关起来了

十二个人的故事  会有结束的一天吗？ 应该有吧。只是不敢想象。

或许十二个人一起的故事结局  每个人都有每个人自己所设想的结局   是好是坏  因人而异

毕竟不是每个人每个故事都有完美的结局

考试压力大  扪心自问  我当然懂  毕竟我也是在逆境中挣扎着   求存  每个人都是  为你们找的借口  要用完了 

或许  还是会  继续下去  可能后来你们考完试出来工作了  还是不能出来见面  我还是会 

就这样继续下去  帮你们寻找让自己好过的理由  但是还是真心的祝福你们  希望每一个人都会拿到理想的成绩  追寻梦想

加油   展翅高飞

泪流的多了。话说得多了。到最后也是于事无补

真的觉得很委屈  真的真的很委屈  不知到自己所做的一切  到底有什么意义 

到头来只是换得一群人的泼冷水  其他人控诉  无视  

无奈的手脚颤抖  泪水对着电话那一头的人恸哭  哭到心都痛

到底何谓真心的付出？是不是自己的付出到最后还是被视予无物

到最后伤的彻底的 还是自己  个人站在个人的角度上  有时候真的看不清很多对方的付出

那些知道的人  大家就自知就好 说再多也无谓

到底是谁在每次的聚会上都尽可能的出现？到底是谁在外边都还记挂着下次回乡土几时能有机会和朋友们相聚？到底是谁每次回到乡土第一件事就是打电话联络老朋友们出来聚聚？到底是谁每次都那么的珍惜每一次见面的机会？到底是谁会为了不能和老朋友相聚而伤心的心痛？到底是谁会为了相聚而每每打很多通电话一个一个的诚意叫对方出来？到底是谁会为了聚会而掏心掏肺安排聚会地点聚会时间聚会活动？到底是谁在异乡还在为老朋友们担心着希望他们都能出来相聚，看一看对方到底还好不好？

朋友们。我知道那些是谁。

 

而另一方面，那到底又是谁每次他电话叫他们出来都给与同样的汤塞借口？说为了读书？？所为了考试？纳闷学校的放假那又是为了什么呢？？STPM？？如果他们觉得那比一年只能见几次面的朋友相对下陷的超级无比重要的话。那么我也无话可说了。十二个人，有些脸孔在一年的聚会上会出现几次呢？又有哪一些人从来都不主动说要聚会。就只等着别人叫。结果后来又给与一大堆的挑剔拉〉说唱歌不好，地点时间不ngam.只是见面太显，补习太累，要读书！！！往往只是给与一句话，就否定了所有之前的planning!一切又要重头plan过！有些时候还会出现不同的planning聚会。一句话就打断了一小群人的努力。有时候也只是特地为了要不惜才“被逼”愿意出来的。到底是谁？到底是谁会正真的珍惜每次次见面的机会的呢？？到底是谁在忙呢？到底谁又看到谁珍惜朋友的努力呢？

到底是谁才是那个真正不愿付出的人呢？

朋友们。我知道那些是谁。

我所说的话。全都没有再怪你们任何一个人。因为没有必要。怪也只是怪我自己罢了。

 

话说多了。就变逆耳。人付出多了。一直被拒绝。也会腻的。也会累了。也会倦了。也想放弃了。

看不清楚很多人的心

十二个人的心 或许再分开的那一刻 就已远走高飞了

只是一些人还执著的呆在原地 死命拉着那根唯一的线  期许还会有奇迹 期许对方还会回头

结果线一断  跌倒了 受伤了 才发现原来是对方早已远去  心找不回来了

PLAN的聚会 最后往往出现的还是那几张面孔 牵强的笑着  苦苦的维持着

没有必要给与任何借口  真心的对方是会看清楚的 到最后会发现 谁才是那个自私的人

十二个人的友情对一些在我们十二个人里  或许已不再重要

但是我永远记得  我最重要的还是你们

只是看来  我也是时候该放弃了吧  我一个人  力量薄弱  能做的 也有限  被误会了 我的委屈也只能往肚子里吞  那些了解真正背后发展的人  大家就心领神会了吧

 

再见了  永远祝福你们  我最爱的十二个朋友们

青。晖。芬。琪。莉。雅。仪。玮。怡。慧。缘。妤

 

终于~终于的终于~考完了toefl~不知道需不需要重考~但毕竟我已经尽力了~谢谢大家sent给我的gud luck message~还要谢谢那些一直安慰我~告诉我应该要怎么考的朋友们~谢谢你们^^~你们真的给了我很多的鼓励和信心~

thx jialerd,Madonna,thx jialerd’s dad for telling us a lot of US state’s stuff,thx jialerd’s mum for the damn damn delicious dinner and breakfast, thx jialerd’s dad’s driver for pick us bek and to subang for TOEFL~

thx jesslyn for sent me the message: IT IS TIME TO SLEEP before TOEFL DAY
and sarah sent me :IT IS TIME TO WAKE UP LOL on the TOEFL day=) haha~
thx Jessica for the GOOD LUCK HANDMADE CARD^^,thx lewjin,yeetchien,haeju and ei leen for wishing me gud luck~

希望今天的每一个jpa scholar都考得很好~~（one thing reli need to mention la: today reli is the INTI JPA SCHOLAR TOEFL DAY~becoz the whole center is full of INTI jpa scholar oni~）

今天的九点我们考着无比重要的toefl而就在同一个时间kl机场有一个38的女孩子也搭上飞机准备要飞去一个遥远的国家开始一个未知的旅途~知道你一直都很坚强~相信你会过得很好~所以不必为你担心了~sharon阿~加油咯~祝福你~谢谢你那时候说至少回来inti见到了对你来说最重要的两个人~真的很感动~那时真的真的很想就这样不顾一切跟你冲去al salam买很久都没吃到的fried ice-cream~可是最后还是我的理智获胜必须去上课~看着你们两个奔跑的背影真的很感触~最后课取消，虽然我拼命跑去车站要送你上巴士。可是最后赶到桥中央还是只能默默看着巴士开走~或许就是注定我没有办法送你吧~也好~免得我伤心~昨天和你通了最后一通电话：听着一边滔滔不绝的你。我痛哭失声。不知道为什么分离的感觉浸染这么的深刻~谢谢有机会认识你~我一直这么38的朋友~或许你是我初到inti认识的朋友吧~又那么聊得开~=)~anyway~wish u all the best in US~希望或许我们有机会再见？  就这样吧：再见了~我的朋友…

 

表面上看起来风平浪静  其实背地里却波涛汹涌

日积月累的问题  意味的逃避不去面对 是永远都解决不了的

我们这些局外人没有办法帮上什么  有的只是能默默地为你祈祷了

情人每天每时每分每秒都在一起  或许厌倦难免  吵架难免

最近发生的事其实质是成为  引爆炸弹的弹头  威胁一直都在



其实和朋友也一样

或许有些时候还是不要太过于接近比较好  毕竟人都是有丑陋的一面的

我并不希望自己开始慢慢的讨厌某些人  甚至于他们是自己亲爱的好朋友们



一夜的攀谈  希望稍稍的能帮助那些  困扰的人

加油  我亲爱的朋友们
=）

终于 第四个学期又开课了

第三个学期的三个礼拜假期又结束了

三个礼拜 21天  感觉不快不慢  虽然没有做出很多productive的东西来 但是整体感觉还蛮不错的

一回去就和邻居阿姨还有妈妈弟弟去吃了很好吃的海鲜烤小螃蟹和烧烤鸡翅膀

接下来立常在家看了很多电视节目〉包括超爱的羽球比赛

还有去修好了我心爱的电脑  和妈妈到一个超大超美的公园跑步玩游乐设施

和妈妈弟弟姐姐去租的羽球场痛快地打了两个小时的羽球   结果隔一天大腿是痛到。。。。。

还有最重要的是看完了超好看完整版的韩版流星花园！！还有之前还没看完的败犬女王，我的帅管家~还有最新的烈火雄心~这几部戏都超级好看的~推荐给大家~

还有和姐姐弟弟去电影院看了the orphan鬼片~超级恐怖的~又很血腥~是一部不错的鬼片~感觉不会像被骗钱的电影~会想起第一次和kumutha去看鬼片~还真的满怀念的~还有在家里看了drag me to hell~这部就没有降好看~

还有去了两次pasar  malam~还有在jusco买了泳衣泳镜~今天第一天和jessica去学游泳~还觉还蛮可怕的~喝了几口水~不知道几时才可以学会游泳呢？看来还有一段时间~哈哈~

还有这个假期做的最多的是就是当老师了！！叫我弟弟~它要考upsr了~所以每天教他马来文和英文~结果感觉我还忘了蛮多的马来文了~毕竟很久都没有碰了~难免生疏~就想对华语一样~感觉忘了写很多华语字了~haha~

很开心在这个假期里shopping买了很多自己喜欢的东西~和小可爱安安弟弟一起玩~真是希望raya break快点到来！！我就可以回家了！！~~九月十九号~加油加油~~~

这个semester最后决定还是只是拿一个physics 2~一科定生死~放弃了psychology~anyway希望这会是一个对的决定~~加油加油~~~

TOEFL>>托福托福！！九月十二号！！要考试了！！希望会拿到好的成绩吧~加油加油^^

It is time again~for summary of  my 3^rd semester in INTI!!!~~^^

Time reli fliesssss~~it is my third time to write my summary life in INTI~2 more semesters to go~I kep on wondering how would I feel if now im writing my last summary part of life in INTI~I guess I will be very emo that time~haha~anyway~juz enjoy my time now^^

First of all~I reli do feel very very happy when I had finish my last paper>>physics!!reli~~hard to use the words to describe~reli happy until I cry hard for half an hour to release my stress for 3++months in my neighbour’s room ~I cry becoz im damn happy I had finish the hardest subject in AUP and beside that also becoz I think I do very bad for the final paper~wonder how my result will be=_=’’~hopefully will get at least a B then I ady very hapi=)

Then for the others 4 subject which are discrete structure,music appreciation,philosophy and moral education,I think overall I had done not bad for my course work marks.All I got 50++ over 60 but all the final paper were damn HARD la~wei!!INTI why set the paper so tough d~T_T~I juz hope at least 2 of them will got A-~then I will be damn hapy ady~

For the discrete structure,it was my first time to feel insecure to let the lecturer mark my paper=_=’’haha~reli~first time~becoz I scare maybe my answer right then he will mark wrongly as he done quite a few “examples” before~hehe~then I feel that I reli din spend too much time on this subject lo~feel quite 惭愧about that!~but overall I think that course not bad la~involve critical thinking also~

While for the music~I think I do feel suffering during the class becoz my lecturer>miss lee alwaz siok sendiri and feel “high” evry time she tell us the story~haha~she can act without considering how other people might react toward that=_=’’ reli bold and 大胆~haha~sometime reli feel that cnt tahan her becoz of her hot temper in the class~but also becoz of this class I got the chance to see a lot of nice music performances by my friends all and got the first chance to go watch the live music concert in KLCC~saw a lot of music talented people in the concert and in our class as well=)~haha~not bad also la~learnt more than 25++musician and 40++song as well>_<’’terrible n suffering time to memorise all those lecture~haiz~~

For the eddy class of philosophy~evry class lesson I do feel damn sleepy becoz all my philo class was 8-10am MORNING Monday n Wednesday~>_<’’~din feel like I got learnt a lot during the class but I reli think that im a bit more philosophical when I speak something out now and I feel damn surprised when I do my philosophy research ,I can recognize a lot of great philosopher now^^~reli feel hapi when I do my own philosophy paper and get 18/20~quite a new and interesting experience for me=)
p/s:I like the replacement class where he let us watch movie!!yeah~

While for the moral>>mr chan cai class~this was the subject which I ponteng the most for the 3 semester in INTI~haha~he alwaz said in the class that the highest attendance will only be during the test 1&2 and of course for final la~he perform his so called “magical necklace” to determine which stuffs are gud or bad to us~im a bit not reli trust that~hoho~we din our presentation and assignment as well~althought he cnt reli teach a lot of useful things to us but I reli like his attitude toward the students~he was so tolerant n generous in all the time^^~I like him as well la~haha

That’s all about my 5 subject taken during my 3^rd semester in INTI~

CALM n patiently to wait for the release of result~

I guess I will get a lot of treat from my friends who get in the PRESIDENT list!!^^haha~期待ing~~

Time to say goodbye to my dear third semester!!!!!BYE~~~~~

CURRENTLY very hapi and enjoying for my holiday~~~yeah~~

=)first time go church wit madonna n jialerd~not bad=) got treat in a veri delicious d chinese restaurant!!



Celebrate Ei leen d Birthday!!!!yeah~~the edited photo were my presents for her=)



Sprained my ankle accidentally!!!It was veri painful and a veri bad experience for me lo~~~!!!but i be more more careful nowlioa~thx madonna,sarah n chinwei to gv me the ubat~~=)luv u all~~